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Symptoms of Depression
Symptoms of Hypomanias

Symptoms of Depression

Quoting from the Wikipedia, the symptoms of depression are:

  • Persistent sad, anxious or “empty” mood

  • Loss of appetite and/or weight loss or conversely overeating and weight gain

  • Insomnia, early morning awakening, or oversleeping

  • Restlessness or irritability

  • Psychomotor agitation or psychomotor retardation

  • Feelings of worthlessness, inappropriate guilt, helplessness

  • Feelings of hopelessness, pessimism

  • Difficulty thinking, concentrating, remembering or making decisions

  • Thoughts of [[death]] or suicide or attempts at suicide

  • Loss of interest or pleasure in hobbies and activities that were once enjoyed

  • Withdrawal from social situations, family and friends

  • Decreased energy, fatigue, feeling “slowed down” or sluggish

  • Persistent physical symptoms that do not respond to treatment, such as headaches, digestive problems, and chronic pain

  • Decrease/Feeling in motor-speed (time seems to slow down)

These are mostly the external symptoms. While the exact thoughts vary from person to person, here is how I felt:

  • I felt I was bad and evil. That I was a bad person, having a bad influence on the world, and that “God hated me”.

  • I felt this was my true state, and that my happy, capable, intelligent and active state was due to “a pact with the devil” or something along these lines.

  • I found that the thoughts haunted me, that I couldn’t really sleep, and was afraid of thinking.

  • I believed the entire world was bad and kept perceiving everything as bad.

  • I had trouble communicating with others, and was afraid to tell them how I felt.

  • I found it harder to do things that I normally find easy to do. For example, I spent hours on end solving a single math problem. I kept convincing myself that it should be easy which made me feel much worse.

  • I was consumed and overwhelmed with guilt. I felt guilty for many things that I perceived as wrong.

Symptoms of Hypomanias

In regard to hypomanias, Wikipedia gives the following symptoms:

  • Pressured speech; rapid talking

  • Inflated self-esteem or grandiosity;

  • Decreased need for sleep;

  • Flight of ideas or the subjective experience that thoughts are racing;

  • Easy distractibility and attention-deficit (superficially similar to attention deficit hyperactivity disorder);

  • Increase in psychomotor agitation; and

  • Steep involvement in pleasurable activities that may have a high potential for negative psycho-social or physical consequences.

It’s a pretty good description of me when I’m hypomanic.